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Today there is a thought come into my mind. I can understand why this will come into my mind. I'm someone who has ex-post regret mindset. Sometimes I would think if I never do this, if I never do that, then I'll become better for my life. But at the same time, I would say this to myself: "If I never do this, I'll never learn the lesson and I'll regret if I never do anything. At least, I have done it." Quite confusing right?

Ok, come back to the thought. The thought is quite simple. I just imagine I can go back to the past. Go back to find "me" who are talking to an ugly, dirty, disgusting and whatever-dirty-words-you-can-think-on-him person at Starbucks Coffee Shop. I'm transparent and fly to "my" back and whispered to "me", "Leave him now! He is a bad guy. You are wasting your time and money, because......!"

Then suddenly, there is something in my mind stopped me from imagined this. It is simple. Everything happened on me is because of... ME! My characteristics have put myself into the situation I have now. No one in the world force me to do if I refuse to do them. Then I remember a movie - Bufferfly Effect. In the movie, the leading actor has the ability to change what he did in the past by reading his diary. He kept going back to his past to change what he has done and he thought these could help his and his friends' lifes become better. But no matter how many times he changed, there would be someone been hurt, including his loves one. End of the movie? He choose to burn his diary so that he cannot change anything anymore. Leave everything back to nature. Leave everything to himself.

There is a chinese proverb - "Not to worry about slowing, but standing". Simple but truth. If I keep thinking about the negative side, I'll never improve and I'm wasting my time. I still have a lot possibilites. I can choose to have a better path and working hard to change my life. I feel fortunate to know what I have known today.

My feeling now? These are them:
I feel thankful I have a healthy body.
I feel thankful my parents are still with me.
I feel thankful for my parents because they provide my education.
I feel thankful that I have the ability to work.
I feel thankful what I have learnt from the valuable books.

Thank You!